Don't ask yourself bullshit questions. Instead, ask yourself, 'what would Optimus Prime do?'
Transform and roll on the floor laughing my ass off? Well, that seems quaint. For a fucking taint!
I am enjoying my freedom. Alas, I am no longer a dumb 26 year old when I first quit my first job.
I feel more... relaxed? Been working like a dog the past week, but I feel good. I feel calm. I feel like a cowboy.
My mind is as clear as a Japanese koi pond. My aches, my bruises, I don't feel any of them.
I'm choosing my projects carefully. On the top of my list are the ones where I work with people who can teach me things. Ones who can show me skills I have not yet acquired or honed.
This is why I took the job writing movies with KRU. I have never done movies before that and the best way to learn is to do it, and they were good enough to allow me in.
This was why I worked with The Malay Mail, and with NST before that. The day I stop learning and improving my craft, is the day I die.
Last year, I tried out lecturing and I think I can only get better at it. This year, I am doing a documentary and a travelogue, getting involved in ways I have never done before. It's fresh and exciting. And even before it was done, I got opportunities to perhaps try my craft with other documentaries and other setups.
I STILL want to do the website I have planned, if I can find someone - anyone - to do it with. I have also never done marketing. Not seriously. Merely opened doors and then alerted others to lock it in.
By the time I am done with this life, I would like to say that I was a student of the world, and I have learned a lot.
Cause I'm a cowboy! On a steel horse I ride! I'm wanted! (Wanted!) Dead or alive!
